To meditate is to make a complete break from how we “normally” operate, for it is a state free of all cares and concerns, in which there is no competition, no desire to possess or grasp anything, no intense and anxious struggle, and no hunger to achieve: an ambitionless state where there is neither acceptance nor rejection, neither hope nor fear, a state in which we slowly begin to release all these emotions and concepts that have imprisoned us into the space of natural simplicity.
Glimpse After Glimpse
Sogyal Rinpoche
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Logic tells me that this state is a noble ambition and thus; as Alan Watts would put it, it is a double-bind. I will meditate until I’m not meditating at all. These conflicting ideals are the center of meditative practices… the yin and the yang… the paradox of ambitionless ambition. Nonetheless, I sit. I sit until I’m not waiting any longer. I listen until I’m not hearing anything by hearing everything. I sit no matter what my brain comes up with and the arguments stop. Sometimes a flash of openness makes room to be enveloped from within by the Heart of Compassion… and I breathe. I breathe from the center of my being that I call my heart and that heart beats a rhythm that my soul dances to. It is the dance of creation that stays with me throughout the day ahead: Om ah hum… vajra guru padma siddhi hum!!! I try not to think about it… try 27, or 54, or 108 repetitions, if you will (that’s what beads are for)… the essence of past, present and future opens.
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